Two separate hearts that never shared the same thought
Until they were apart all they could think was
“I miss you”
But now I’m just trying so hard to forget you.
I was just thinking…
When my mom was my age she had a 6 year old kid. I wasn’t much of a hellian when I was younger but still, I could not imagine taking care of a young child and making sure he was going through school and doing good and everything. My mom is one tough son-of-a-bitch. And I didn’t even turn out messed up or anything.
I have overlooked a lot of things my friends do for me.
I can honestly say that my friends have done/offered to do more things for me than the family I live with. One person in particular has done a lot for me and I have over looked it plenty of times. Erika. I honestly don’t know what most of you think of her but she honestly has done a lot for me and is still helping me out, even when we aren’t on the best of terms. If you know her, or even know who she is, just thank her for me, because I can’t thank her enough. All of my friends have done plenty of things that I am grateful for I just feel like she has been overlooked the most. So to all of my friends, I really love you guys. Thanks.
EDIT: My friends are better than yours. Unless you are my friend.
Fuck the people that live in this house.
You’re all pieces of shit. I’m gone as soon as I get the chance. I should have left to Oregon when I had the chance. I hope you know that I only stayed because I’ve become a lot closer to my friends in the past few months, and I didn’t want to leave them. But I can’t stand it in this house much longer. Fuck you. I told you I’m still waiting for a call from Starbucks. I told both of you, a couple of times, maybe you were just too high to remember. I thought you changed. I thought you weren’t gonna be the fuck ups you used to be. I guess I was wrong, or maybe I new you never changed but I liked the way you were even if it was just a front for everyone else to see. You’re probably gonna end up losing your child to someone like you did last time. You’ve already lost me and Christian. I wish my mom had enough space for me at her house. I’d live her in heart beat. At least I still have my friends, who I feel closer to than I ever will to you. They have saved me time and time again. They give me real advice when I need it, they listen to me when I just need to talk out my ass. I feel like they have been longer than you, and they understand me better than you ever will.
I honestly love all of my friends with a love that grew between us. I feel like I just say I love you because you’re my dad and I have to. We have no bond between us like I do with my friends, and I hate that.
Sorry I was just rambling. I’m fucking sick of these feelings and had to get them out.
